Yea for a time now I have been thinking. I been kinda scared in a way. I been thinking about school and the fact that its almost over your know. I am pretty scared that I wont have a job after the I finish college. I mean my good looks can only get me so far lol.

I ended up talking to one of my co-workers. He told me I needed motivation. Something to keep in the zone, to have a drive. I realized that the motivation I need cant come from others it has to come from myself. I mean yea the people who are helping go through school need results, but its more than that. I have to find something in myself that will help me through. To not be afraid that I might fail or that I might not get my dream job.

Until I know that, I am gonna be in a constant struggle within myself.